that reminds me of the advice someone gives in one of muriel spark's novels: 'when you write, don't think of the audience, that will put you off. instead, imagine that you're writing a letter to a very close friend.' something like that. you see, my taking writing very seriously is a hindrance, because being oversensitive makes practicing impossible. on the other hand, desacralizing writing feels wrong. when i write, i get frustrated almost immediately. i tried to lower the barrier, writing whatever comes to mind and posting it in this journal, but that doesn't work either, because it's just a longer road to frustration. but i do write sometimes, and i have a tag for that, heh-heh: http://vriad-lee.livejournal.com/tag/moi
i don't think i've read anything by бутов, but overall modern russian writers have been so disappointing that i just stopped reading them! and i don't mean донская or маринина, i haven't read such stigmatized women novelists at all, but сорокин, пелевин, толстая, лимонов, виктор ерофеев, проханов, and many many others have been all disappointing. although i like some early things by sorokin, and i was a great fan of limonov for some while, but. btw, tomka posted a link to her short stories recently, i really liked some of them.
as for your singing, i didn't realize it was a recent story. for some reason, i assumed that it all was a long time ago. judging by your drawings, you learn exceptionally fast. as long as you love singing, maybe it's okay that you don't have a professional career. a real career would make you sacrifice everything else. in contrast, singing for small audiences can coexist with many other things/activities.
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Date: 2006-09-22 11:59 am (UTC)you see, my taking writing very seriously is a hindrance, because being oversensitive makes practicing impossible. on the other hand, desacralizing writing feels wrong. when i write, i get frustrated almost immediately. i tried to lower the barrier, writing whatever comes to mind and posting it in this journal, but that doesn't work either, because it's just a longer road to frustration. but i do write sometimes, and i have a tag for that, heh-heh: http://vriad-lee.livejournal.com/tag/moi
i don't think i've read anything by бутов, but overall modern russian writers have been so disappointing that i just stopped reading them! and i don't mean донская or маринина, i haven't read such stigmatized women novelists at all, but сорокин, пелевин, толстая, лимонов, виктор ерофеев, проханов, and many many others have been all disappointing. although i like some early things by sorokin, and i was a great fan of limonov for some while, but. btw, tomka posted a link to her short stories recently, i really liked some of them.
as for your singing, i didn't realize it was a recent story. for some reason, i assumed that it all was a long time ago. judging by your drawings, you learn exceptionally fast. as long as you love singing, maybe it's okay that you don't have a professional career. a real career would make you sacrifice everything else. in contrast, singing for small audiences can coexist with many other things/activities.