that was their very theory - that the "rebyata" were in the right and that you must fit in and you are a loser if you can't. it was all about "respect" - gaining it, fighting for it, using it for good deeds. and it was the very dirty, miserable inmates' "respect", purely Yanomamo stuff. it was your fault and moreover your guilt if you couldn't gain respect and of those... well, young people let me say and got your immunity from their hands. it completely broke down Ilyusha who was not a good man from the beginning but could make a quite agreeable soviet "intelligent" had he had a proper education and friendly environment.
i can imagine what it was to grow up in that dvor our father grew up in and what it was to gain respect from local hooligans as he did. i think he never got over it.
so Ilya didn't. we all walked away from it and he's still there playing "a man" and standing his stand over completely wasted and abandoned - and just somebody's else! - ground.
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Date: 2006-03-06 02:29 pm (UTC)i can imagine what it was to grow up in that dvor our father grew up in and what it was to gain respect from local hooligans as he did. i think he never got over it.
so Ilya didn't. we all walked away from it and he's still there playing "a man" and standing his stand over completely wasted and abandoned - and just somebody's else! - ground.