vriad_lee

yes, what? i just have to agrree! about ilya especially, although in reality i know nothing about him/his childhood. but that total surprise - moving from our flat to that hell like in a matter of day, never realizing what happened until you are out of it in 8 years, and even then not realizing what happened, for years! the surprise of it! i don't know, i think i'm intentionally stupid sometimes, wishful thinking as a form of protection, i guess i took that from mother. because how blood-thirsty i would have been by now, if i didn't compensate all that screaming hell with some unrealistic self-deceiving goodness? or maybe i'm blood-thirsty by now anyway, i don't know