vriad_lee

when you try not to forget a feeling (esp a feeling of the kind) you feel it again, as much mitigated and distorted as your memory and the time allows. it rots inside you poisoning your blood and any new thought you try to think. it is like plucking on a healing wound because you know you understood something when the bullet hit and are afraid to lose it. this brings nothing, explains nothing, helps nothing. you can't "forget" anyway: any wound lives with you, body never forgets a pain, you know that. brain never forgets either. soul never forgets. what you feel as a feeling sleeping away or betrayal is healing, nothing more nothing less. let your wounds heal to that extent that they can be healed. and that is not much anyways.