your notions of good and bad have become deeper and more definate since then, haven't they? so why do you think you need this shock therapy to stay in shape? what i say is not FORGET. what i say is DON"T TRY TO BRING IT BACK TO LIFE. when i stopped this "never forget" game i remembereв tons of stuff i suppressed (and had no idea i did). you beat down into your subconsciousness more stuff now then you can dream of: you're still fighting and this staff is still the question of life and death, of your sanity. not to forget, just recognize the person you are now, and you are not that boy, you can't re-live or even re-construct his life!