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Jan. 16th, 2006 02:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vriad_leei remember now that feeling, of waiting for a letter or some other sort of response, from a girl. when you can't do anything, and the sweetness of the world has concentrated in that future response. i don't remember getting any meaningful reactions (and i fell in love constantly in childhood). and if i did get any, i would probably be disappointed, because i'm a moral perfectionist. no, i'm lying, i wouldn't be disappointed. but i don't remember any positive progress. for one thing, girls only look so frilly. they are as bad as any kids. and kids are just as bad as any people, and even worse as we know from william golding. but the worse thing was being a sick little pervert. i had such a funny mix of chivalry, perfectionism (aesthetic and moral), escapism and what else? it would be better to demonstrate with examples, but that would be too painful. trying to say bad things about oneself insinuating good things about oneself is someting i have been doing all these years. but as it is, you can't help trying to imply good things about yourself. because everyone is the center of their universe, and even if they are wrong, they are still right. they just don't know that they are wrong yet, and when they do, bingo, they're already right. some philosopher must have described this at great length, but i didn't read him. which leads me to another topic: how can i expect that people will read my posts (and that's what i expect), and how can they expect that i will read theirs, if i don't even read all the stuff great writers write, the writers that i really appreciate? like, paul graham is one of my favourite online writers, but i haven't read all his stuff. but now that i think about it, i do have my reasons. i'm too lazy. besides, i have things to do, like poke my nose and stare at my journal page. and that's only two examples off the top of my head
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Date: 2006-01-16 01:08 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2006-01-16 01:20 am (UTC)i also agree and understand about how hard or meaningless it can be to want someone to participate in your own writing or art. that's just one of those things. it's best to forget and do your thing. it's surprising sometimes what people like. you can't really tell. the artist isn't the editor, or the curator, or the profiteer.
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Date: 2006-01-16 03:07 am (UTC)i have other things to say but my jaw is feeling tight and uncooperative. you're not the only person who i disappoint.
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Date: 2006-01-16 03:23 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-01-16 04:24 am (UTC)>is someting i have been doing all these years.
mea culpa.
don, aka the cretin
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Date: 2006-01-16 05:02 am (UTC)But, what do I know?
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Date: 2006-01-16 05:09 am (UTC)d.
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Date: 2006-01-16 06:36 am (UTC)На картинке изображен мальчик или девочка? Талия, пупок и намек на жопу намекают на девочку, но где сиськи? Сиськи где?
И второй вопрос: когда вы влюблялись в детстве в девочек, вы были четырьмя кудрявыми (впоследствии лысыми) еврейчиками или малолетней лесбиянкой?
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